Journey to the Land of the Barren

Okay, so I started this blog because I got sick of reading all the blogs that have the little bouncing baby on it that says The Blank Baby 93 days to go. I wanted to talk about what it is like not to be the typical fertile woman and get pregnant just winking at my husband. I want to talk about my journey so far. So this blog will be long. I apolygize in advance.

So as of right now we having been trying to get pregnant for 54 months. That is the first thing people who are going through this want to know. For 48 of those months, it was really just the good old fashion trying. Then I was offered a job with the company I am at now. It was not as much money as I could make and it was a bachelor's level job but I felt like I needed to take it. After I took the job, I found out it covers infertility treatments. So, I made an appointment without knowing what to expect. My first appointment was nothing more that telling me what was going to happen for the next couple of months. So for the next couple of months I went in for once a week basically. The first couple of months is nothing but running test. At first he took a sample of my uterus lining. Painful!!! This is the procedure that came back showing I had polyps. This comes in later. Then he took about 12 tubes of blood to run a bunch of test. It was so much that the lady taking it asked what was wrong with me. All my bloodwork came back good. Then they did a dye test, which was kind of painful but more embarassing that anything. A dye test is when they stick this ballon thing inside your uterus and squirt dye to look at your tubes and look through x-ray machine to make sure yor tubes are unblocked. Mine were great. No blockage what so ever. I just hate that I have to be awake during all of this. Then Milton had to have his test. Which turned out great! He is perfect in that department. Then the doctor wanted to do a thing called the fluid test (very similiar to the dye test) to confirm the polyps. This one was very painful!!! So once that was confirmed, I was scheduled for surgery to remove them. During all this they stop your period and then sometimes they start it heavy. They tell you when to have relations and when to not to. They give you different medicines. Its all so crazy.

So all my test came back good except the ones detecting the polyps. The surgery was suppose to remove them but since I have so many the doctor could not remove them all. So this is when some of the bad news comes in. Even though I am pretty clear of polyps right now, there is a HUGE chance they can back. The polyps are ONE of the reasons that I have not been able to get pregnant (When you are infertile you learn that they can never be just ONE reason). An embryo needs a clean uterus lining to stick to. Mine was not clean. So the next step is the hardest...the waiting. So now we have to wait to see if my monthly visitors comes and if she does not. Then the doctor with make that happen. Once that happens, the doctor will give me Clomid to take on certain days with timed relations. I will do this cycle for three months or until I get pregnant (which ever comes first).

If I am not pregnant, in three months, we start the invitro process, which is a whole new blog. Right now I am on five different medications just to start preparing. I am sorry for the long blog, but I wanted to let those who go through the same thing as me to have something to read. I also want to let those who are thinking about going to an infertiliy specialist know that you have to be dedicated. Sometimes even though your wonderful dedicated husband is standing in the room at the doctors appointments, you can feel alone.